crossdressing on TV

Tonight thers’s a “documentary” on Belgian TV tonight about crossdressers. A show called “Telefacts”

However, I’m afraid that for sake of “entertainement” and “a good story” none of these crossdressers will represent what I am feeling about it.
It looks like the persons talking about it in the episode, feel like two persons. Something I have always denounced to be. I’m me! I’m not Mr X and Ms Y.
Also at least one of the interviewed (as it says on the website anouncement) is being sexually aroused by the womens’ clothing. I am not. As I said before, I get exited when I get something new. But I guess all women get exited when they get new clothes. And all computer nerds get exited when they get a new super PC. And super-macho sport-freaks get exited when they get a signed baseballcard or something… But that’s not sexual excitement. Neither is it with me.

I can’t really say WHY i dress… It’s not for the arousal. It’s not for looking sexy ‘coz I KNOW I look REALLY rediculous. It’s not because I am a woman in a man’s body or so. No way I want an operation. I just think women’s clothing look nicer. There’s much more choise. They feel nicer. A skirt is much more agreable than trousers. Women’s shoes feel nicer to the feet, not closing in the entire foot as men’s shoes. And yes, I know a lot of people now think: but shorts are cool, and men’s sandals are not locking in the foot either. But it just isn’t the same.

And I don’t really think I act differently when dressed m or f…
(well, maybe i walk a bit different on high heels than in mens clothes but for the rest…)
Hehehe… reminds me: Lenore was ultra-jealous when she found out I could walk in 5 inch high heels easily that she couldn’t even keep her balance in.

Ah, we’ll see. I just hope that people who know me and look at this documentary wil keep in mind that my case appears to be different than the “standard’ crossdresser or at least the type you see on TV…

But something I don’t want to keep from you:
A videoclip by the Belgian music band Zornik (more info here )

Scared of yourself – Zornik
You reach for pain
you reach for fear
you reach for everything
but nothing ever comes your way

And I’m not lying
And you always complain about the way I behave without you

And last night I had a dream
about it
And it’s very hard to stay faithful
to a dream of you

CHORUS:
Think about the lies
that we told to each other
we never bothered
What a big surprise
that you’re scared of yourself
and alone all again

You reach for me
you reach for us
you reach for everything
but nothing ever comes my way

But you
you are nothing but a state of mind
from the start until the end

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