Pffffff…. paranoia kicks in…
I’m seeing ghosts everywhere. Behind every reaction of Lenore on my actions/words/whatever, I see possible complots, tactics, mind games etc…
And I know that Lenore wouldn’t do these things. Not normally anyway.
And it’s mutual… Lenore sees mindgames, dirty tactics or whatever behind everything I do as well.
So I’m definately NOT accusing her or playing victim. I’m paranoid too… This whole separation is getting out of control I’m afraid.
Basically we agree on everything: the arangement regarding our son, the division of everything in the house, the house itself…
But I’m afraid the paranoia will take over and one of us will start doing stupid things so we have to go to court… And I don’t want that! Lawyers only make things worse, cost a lot of money etc. I’m trying to keep my mind together and think logically. But sometimes an answer or a sentence or a use of words by Lenore brings back all that irritating suspicion.
If only we could start believing eachother again. If only we could stop the secrecy… Maybe then the fear for dirty play would vanish as well.
I’m so afraid of breaking some of the Wizard’s rules number 1, 3 and 6 (see here )
Tags: feelings, Lenore, mad, paranoia, queen, video, wizard rules
