Trancedance lesson 3: Kundalini

Alright. Lesson three has finished. And in open air!

For starters we all had to bring flowers for our protégé. I couldn’t find his/her favorite flowers nor his/her favorite color, so I hope my gift isn’t a real bummer for my protégé. We had to fill in a form connecting all the names of the participants with their nick names. Of 8 participants I think I can connect about 4 (My protégé, my Love, the instructor and myself). Not much but considering it’s only names… It was announced that 6 out of 8 participants guessed correctly who their own protégé was. Every participant got an opportunity to express their feelings about the gift they received during lesson 2. I paid special attention to my protégé and was a little surprised by his/her reaction. Once again I can’t go into detail because of participants reading here. (although I suspect her of knowing MUCH more than she’s willing to say). Maybe my “rogue” idea will help me to be an even better Guardian Angel.
So the dance class itself:

The first part was all about hip movement. So I discovered my life-long lock on my hips still hasn’t disappeared Or maybe women just have that little extra which enables them to move their hips more sensual, more fluently…
I tried my best. At first glance I think I did better then the other male participants but hey, I still sucked hehehe.

The second part was theatrical dance. Apparently we all will have to learn a choreography to create a full dance in the later classes. This time (dunno if it will stay that way) it was all around the song “The Wall” by Pink Floyd. We all had to walk/run/move in slow motion across the world. At a certain point we had to stop moving and very dramatically start pointing at one of the other participants. “They are to blame for all the misery in our lives!”. So we had to start building our own defense walls. Lift big, heavy, imaginary bricks and place them on top of eachother. After that, we had to emerge from behind our wall and move around robot-like. We “left our emotions behind the defense walls”. But then the robots started hitting the walls of others. Surprised they started to touch the encountered wall to find out what it was. We finished by falling asleep against these walls. I really like the philosophy behind this dance. I can see why building a wall for your defense will limit yourself in experiencing the outside world. And that we only see the walls of others but forget our own walls. But the theatrical dance about it isn’t really my style. Some of the other participants were probably thinking the same thing since a lot of jokes were made during this part. (stealing eachother’s bricks, shooting eachother in stead of pointing, leaning on walls like you do in a pub, etc). We’ll see what this dance will bring in the end…

Then there was part three: The Kundalini dance. I had heard about Kundalini before. I knew it was the same as Chi, Qi, Prana or Axé (more synonyms). And I heard the music before. But the dance I hadn’t seen yet. We had to start moving up and down by bending the knees. Then “scoop” with our pelvis. When this was OK, we had to swing our arms down-front-up-behind wise. And again “scoop” some dirt with our hands. While doing all this, our heads had to knod along. We had to practice this for a number of minutes. This movement had to become automatic so it would enable us to go into a meditative state. After a while the music changed and we had to imagine a snake in our intestines that was coiled up. This snake represents the duality, stress, chaos in ourselves. By using this movement repeatedly we had to awaken this serpent and like a Fakir have the snake move upwards. Moving past our ribs, past our heart, past our neck/throat (at this moment I almost felt like vomiting!), past our head and trough the top of our head right out of it. At this point we needed a small break and sat down to drink water and use an icecube to cool down ourselves a bit. I felt so vibrating. Pulses ran through my whole body but my neck felt heavy. During the next part (again while dancing this repetitive Kundalini pattern) we had to imagine facing a tsunami/mud stream that consisted of our roadblocks of life. All the past situations, all the persons in the past that kept us from moving forward. We had to imagine that we had to fight this tsunami just to survive from drowning. At this stage at first I saw my Love coming for me. But then it became all the girls in my past and how all of them saw me as a teddybear rather than as a partner. All of my ex-girlfriends came to view: Cindy 1, Inge, Karin, Cindy 2, Isabel and my Love. Too bad the instructor came to me during this stage and told me to start jumping (while still maintaining the Kundalini movements). This broke my trance and caused fatigue to hit me like a sledge hammer. But still, I managed not to drown and fight the mud-stream. When the music ended we had to go and lay down on blankets. Lay down two-by-two while touching eachother (no not sexually!). At first my “partner” and me only touched sides. And a immense desire to cuddle my Love overwhelmed me! In my head it was my Love that was lying next to me. I felt lonely! I needed my Love! Then my “partner” moved and started to cuddle me. At this moment I lost it. The pain, the sadness, the loneliness kicked in and I couldn’t help but cry silently. My partner must have felt it cause she patted my heart at a certain point. You can’t believe how much comfort that little gesture was! Thank you! From the bottom of my heart. From every atomic particle in my body! At this point we had to slowly break the contact and become ourselves again. This was the end of lesson 3.

So we went to receive our gift from our Guardian Angels… The giftwrap was strange! It didn’t look like a bouquet of flowers. I waited until home before I opened my gift. It wasn’t a bouquet. It was a box of dried and perfumed flowers. It wasn’t what I expected but I liked it anyway. It looked nice and smelled wonderfull. But what really hit me was the included message! There’s only one description to describe it correctly: “bull’s eye”. I really felt like my Guardian Angel knew me. Knows me. Knows my essence. Knows my problems. Now I have to believe that the first gift was NOT superficial. It was NOT a coincidence. It was really what I hoped it was. I DO have a Guardian Angel protecting my heart! Thank you!

PS: The day after: I can feel the muscles in my neck and shoulders. But it isn’t as bad as I feared. Just a feeling of tiredness. I guess practicing my sports really does improve muscles

Tags: angel, dance, feelings, gift, guardian, kundalini, love, trance, wall